My First Love

This should be an interesting one....

So, I had to find the motivation to write this one, because it is kind of a trick question, so I thought.....but then the more I thought about it, the more I came to the conclusion that it is not as tricky as I thought it would be...so, with that said, I will tell you a little bit about what I mean...

I currently am married to my best friend...my soul mate, an amazing husband who I could not ever compare to anyone else, or ever want to for that matter. I have never felt a love like I feel for him, nor have I ever felt a comfortablity level around anyone else like I feel when I am with him. Being with my husband is like a breath of fresh air, and with each year that passes, I love him more and more...I know I am making you gag....but, this is the honest truth...I am so blessed and so lucky to have him as my husband....so to answer the question of my first love...this is tough, in a way, because I have never felt this way about anyone other than my husband.

However, to be fair, I need to answer the true question which is FIRST LOVE. I did love someone before and I know that for a fact. It was definately a different kind of love, and I still very much care for this person and I do consider this person a good friend to this day. So, what do you want to know about my "first love"?

Well, he's a bit older than me....it was kind of a big deal at the time....because I was 15 when I started dating him and he was 19. He got made fun of for that, and I got made fun of for being a little girl around all of these college kids...but it was all good. We definately made it a little further than most people thought we would. Together for almost 5 years.....this person who is a wonderful, wonderful person, saw me grow up essentially. Literally, saw me make it through highschool, graduate from highschool, and even dropped me off at my first day of college...We did alot together. Went on vacations together, Florida, vermont, Maine, California...had alot of fun, had alot of great talks...had alot of BIG fights....I saw this relationship as being very passionate in every way, good and bad. We were so much alike that sometimes we really clashed and this was not so healthy....Being that we are both very argumentative, in a way...we definately had some crazy times, that really only him and I know about....and I will keep it that way!! But all in all, if I had to do ANYTHING over again, I would not. I have no regrets....and I love that this person was my first love. Everyone should have a first love aside from their future wife/husband, because I truly feel it helps you really figure out what it is that you want in a spouse, and what you do not want, and also makes you a better person to your future spouse. I learned SO much from this person and I am so grateful he was in my life, and that he continues to be a part of my life. He now is married to the love of his life, and she is such a great person as well and they truly were made for each other...it is crazy to me that he seems to have the same type of relationship with his wife now that I have with my husband, even though OUR relationship was SOOO different....But, this is all about learning and living life and really experiencing until you get it RIGHT. I truly believe the both of us have gotten it RIGHT and we are BOTh so blessed to have been in each others lives, but now are even more blessed to have learned so much from each other so that we could be the best spouse to our current spouses. It really is such an amazing thing....

So, with all of that said....my first love was a great one...went to my junior and senior proms, graduations, etc...and is still a part of my life today....he is a great person, a great friend and I am sure a great husband to his beautiful wife. In fact, the both of us will be collaborating our creativeness since he is the best man and I am the made/matron of honor in his brothers wedding. His brother is marrying one of my best friends! Small world....and fun times...:)

So, I hope you enjoyed my story of my first love....I am going to end this with a QUOTE!

Day 2: Meaning Behind My Blog Name

So, it took me a while to come up with this blog name....and I know it is not completely original, considering it is the title to a PINK Cd. and all....but out of all of  the words I could think about, I truly felt as though MISUNDERSTOOD is probably the one word that describes how I feel when it comes to most people. I really feel as though even the closest people to me misunderstand me, or take me for someone I am not. Yes, I have caused some misunderstanding and certain ways people look at me, but other than that people misunderstand me in the craziest ways, and it really bothers me because for the most part, I truly feel as though there is not a whole lot to me. I am not a mysterious person. I am very honest, more so NOW than ever, and I am really not all that hard to figure out....But, for some reason....people just dont get it. I have never seen myself as plain or ordinary...NEVER...so maybe this is the start of people's confusion...and what I mean by this, is that I have always envisioned myself doing GREAT things in life. Not to say, that ordinary people dont envision themselves doing great things in life....but I have always felt different...so maybe that is my problem right there. Maybe if I see myself as different than alot of people then, maybe others are confused by me because they feel the same way?? hmmm. interesting to think about.

What I mean by "different"...I have never been the type of person to ever want to conform to anything. I do my thing, you do your thing, and if our paths cross, great....thats my attitude. I am a very sensitve person that cares deeply for other people, but at the same time I really cant be bothered and messed around with or I will drop you for life. But, then if I "drop you" this does not mean I will not forgive you...this just means that I cant associate with people that would disrespect me and not treat me how I deserve to be treated. I treat people with respect and go out of my way for other people, and I feel as though if you cannot do the same thing for me, as I do for you, then you do not deserve my company...because I deserve more than that....

So, as you can see...I am a little deeper than just saying, yup, I am a good person that would do anything for others, even if they skrew me over...the end. Nope...I think things through before I act and before I say anything. For the most part, I am laid back and try not to stress over too much....For some reason, one thing that really bothers me, is that many people seem to be afraid to tell me the truth about things....I am a TRUTH driven person...I am a big girl..I can handle the truth. Yes, I may not like it, and I may be hurt, but the truth is I FULLY respect someone SO much more when they can of course, in a kind voice tell me the truth about ANYTHING on their mind. When someone lies to me about ANYTHING this is the ultimate form of dis-respect in my eyes, especially after learning my fair share through doing this to other people...I could never lie to anyone about anything now that I have grown up, and I dont accept anyone lying to me...this is one of the BIGGEST misunderstanding people make about me, that 1.) I am not approachable when it comes to telling me the truth or 2,) that I cannot handle people telling me the truth about things that may hurt or 3.) I am not strong enough to handle honestly.

these are all the BIGGEST misunderstandings you can make about me....so if you take anything away from this, know I am an HONEST person who deserves honesty from others, even if it hurts...I respect someone so much more for telling me the truth when it hurts rather than lying to me to keep "hurtful" things away from me...I can handle it, so just be honest with yourself and ME and I will be fine!! Also, I am a strong person...I can handle almost anything and have been through almost everything. Also another common misunderstanding...I am NO fool. IF someone is not telling me the truth about things, I usually know...but I dont like to embarrass others with their stupidity, so I ususally will not say anything unless it warrants some confrontation....usually if I know you are lying to me, which 99% of the time I can guarantee I do, I probably will not say anything as long as it is not going to hurt myself or anyone else. Get that straight as well! :)

So, with that said....my name is misunderstood because I feel misunderstood everyday of my life!!! Hopefully these blogs will straighten some things out!! :)

Day 1: Introduction and 15 interesting facts about myself!!

Well, here I am..this is the real me you are about to see here. Not that I ever act in a way that could be looked upon as fake...but I am the person that others go to with their problems...I am the "advice giver" friend. I am the friend that has it together and will be there for anyone at any time. I love this about myself. And I cherish that I can be that friend. The problem is, sometimes I get lost in translation and because I am that person always there to help out everyone else, when it is my turn to cry and turn to someone no one is there because everyone assumes I am great and have it all together. I appreciate the confidence in me by others, but sometimes I need someone there too, so with inspiration from a friend, I thought this blog would be a great way to share how life truly is for me and the trials and tribulations that have gotten me to where I am today. I have NO complaints about my life and I truly am a very blessed, happy person who loves life and loves to love others. That is me in a nutshell. However there are those deep dark horrible days where I dont know if I can do it anymore and those are the days that make me a stronger person and get me to the next stages of my life. This blog will hopefully open the eyes of those of you who care enough to stick around and truly UNDERSTAND me, without THINKING you understand me. So, with that said....I am going to start off with a little fun 15 facts about myself that maybe alot of people may not know...:)

1. I HATE the sound of water (or any liquid) being poured into a glass. I just got chills thinking about it.
2. My favorite thing to be called is D. not Danny, not Danielle-ee, not even Danielle. I like to be called D. only my hubby and his family call me that for some reason....
3. I consider myself pretty talented. Usually most things I attempt I am good at or I at least learn quickly. I'm a "quick learner!"
4. I LOVE to perform for others, especially if I am confident in what I am doing. One of the biggest rushes of adrenaline I ever got was when I danced on stage in the Nutcracker and Sleeping Beauty.
5. I am so unbelievaly attached to my dog, that if I even think about him not being around one day for ONE second I start crying instantly. No one will ever understand the unconditional love he shows to me on a daily basis.
6. My little sister is on of the most important people in my life and I dont know if she really fully understands that. I would take a bullet for her.
7. I could EASILY eat Pizza for every meal of every day and be happy for life. as long as I could have ice cream for dessert.
8. I have the MOST rewarding but MOST underestimated job of all time....seriously...it is the best job for crazy people, but it is by far the BEST job I have ever had and every single day I thank God for blessing me with something I LOVE to do and making me so successful at it.
9. I have never even TOUCHED a cigarette. Literally....like I mean, refused to even hold one for someone, or buy cigarettes for anyone....I am serious...I wont even TOUCH one. Let alone smoke one.
10. Being that I have never even touched a cigarette, I definately have NEVER tried any sort of drug including everyone's most popular form of therapy, weed. Nope, not me.
11. I tried out for American Idol...I obviously did not make it....but I went for 3 days of audtions, so I made it for a while!! But, it was such a fun experience and I met some pretty awesome people.
12. I have met so many celebrities in my life that I completely lost track. Well over 50 celebs. Some I just happened upon, others I definately planned and did some strategizing to meet, but all in all, I met them!
13. I am deeply religious and believe everything happens for a reason, no matter how bad. I truly believe Jesus is my daddy and I feel so alive when I go to church.
14. I feel my absolute BEST when I am in the shower after the gym. I really feel as though I am washing away fat that just seeped out of my pores through sweat...its the best feeling ever!

15. The ONLY person who really truly has ever successfully broken my heart, not once, or twice, but multiple times, is my own father. Because of this, I dont let many people up and over the walls I build and this blog is hopefully going to help tear down some of those walls.

30 Day Blog Challenge!!

 

 

 

Alright....So this is my FIRST real blogging experience...this is definately inspired by a few things, but the main reason I want to take time to start blogging everyday, is not only for my own sanity and finding a little time for myself out of the day, but also because I feel as though I am misunderstood and just simply not "known" by too many people. People that think they know me really do not, and this should cover all bases. But even beyond that, this will hopefully inspire others to wear their hearts on their sleeves and be themselves, because that is what life is all about. I am starting my blogging with a 30 day challenge that inspired me when a friend started this on her page a few days ago. Being that I have never successfully blogged before, this will give me a guideline as to what to write everyday so my friends and family can start getting to know who I REALLY am. I hope you all enjoy....I will do my best at trying to write every single day...but life gets crazy sometimes, so bare with me!!

 

Day 0: The 30 Day Challenge Explanation and Description
Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: Your first love
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite movies
Day 8: A place you've traveled to
Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend

Day 10: Something you're afraid of
Day 11: Favorite tv shows
Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Dream house
Day 17: Something you're looking forward to
Day 18: Favorite Place to Eat
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: Favorite Picture of yourself ALL TIME Why?
Day 22: What's in your purse?
Day 23: Favorite Movie
Day 24: Something you've learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Your Dream Wedding
Day 27: Original Photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: a picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge